Bex Fitness Journey

So as most of you will know, I started my fitness journey exactly a year ago today when I started group PT & started taking it more seriously. Over the past year, I have been pretty consistent with my training... a bit up and down with my eating habits but overall doing ok. I have been training in a small gym, usually in separate rooms doing classes and with the same small group of people so I’m not used to the big, busy gyms anymore. However, I have realised my body is getting used to the same routine so I NEED to get back to the gym and do more if I want to see a difference.. my anxiety is through the roof just now, thinking about walking into the big gym tonight. It’s probably mainly all in my head but I think everyone’s looking at me and judging me. I am going to do it. I know I have to or I won’t move forward. I will probably have to go by myself too, making it even harder, but I WILL do it. 

 

To top it all off... This week I hurt my back and have really been struggling to train the same way as I am used to. At PT last night, I had to put one of the weights down by 15kgs. I instantly felt like a failure and like I was going to burst into tears in the middle of the room. I very nearly walked out of the room and was so ready to give up.  I felt like I was going backwards instead of forwards. It’s so rubbish but I kept going and now I am taking my PT’s advice and taking it easy.. if I don’t, it’ll just get worse and I will struggle even more.

I never want to go back to the start again. I have come so far.   I just really hope I can push through, rest, heal and get back to myself. Training hard, working hard and being positive and focused.

 

Tonight is the first step .. going back to the gym on my own.

 

-R